‘I Invest in My Ambition’ …Travel Along, Day 10
03February
As a child, I ‘WAS’ extremely ambitious.
WHAT HAPPENED?
I chose to read the encyclopedia.
I was in the middle of ‘A’ when my stepmother derided me.
That shook me to the core.
I CLOSED the book… NEVER picked it up AGAIN.
I told myself, ‘MY LIFE WILL NEVER BE WHAT I WANT IT TO BE’.
I lived my life that way for years.
When you grow up with narcissistic parents, it is ALL about them.
They taught me this without me even knowing.
They said ‘SOMEDAY’ I can do what I want.
The implication was NEVER.
I ‘BOUGHT’ into that.
They were the ‘AUTHORITY’ figures.
Eventually, I went to ‘The Forum’ through Landmark Education, formerly known as EST.
That opened me up a little. I took more courses, which helped somewhat.
Volunteering at one, I was asked what I wanted to get out of it.
‘To feel like I am worth something’.
Did I learn that?
Well… yes, HOWEVER…
For a few years, I asked the question: ‘Ok, I am worth something, what does that mean?’
‘Am I worth more than a SPECK OF DUST?’
‘A DROP OF WATER?’
‘ENOUGH TO BE ALIVE?’
‘A piece of S…?’
Slowly I invested in my ambition.
Over time, my ambition compounded and paid off.
My ‘AHA’ moment:
‘I can HELP others’.
‘It’s NOT about me anymore’
Those were my EXACT thoughts.
What a REVELATION. I had healed enough to be able to help others.
At that moment I became an energy healer.
My ambition caused me to learn what it takes to help others.
Not that I wasn’t busy already, in architecture and as a Realtor, which I still do.
I love variety, and my ambition to learn more, and help others has added more layers and dimensions of QUALITY to my life.
I am able to really see the ‘worth’ I bring to the table in many more ways.
Life IS exciting!
Have I invested enough in my ambition?
No.
Why?
As I have so many interests, it will be good for me to CHANNEL My AMBITION to actually get the priorities done, instead of being side-tracked.
Investing in my ambition for the PRIORITIES!
Making the things that count HAPPEN!